its a constant battle. and it never really goes away. you think it does, but then wham it hits you suddenly right smack in the face. e reasons why i want it so bad is just endless, on-going, ever-changing and constantly adding. if i didn't love _____ as much as rachel, and i didn't have friends like screw. i half dread what would be of me now. though the other part of me secretly loves and craves for it. hah.